Today I went to the tree that represents my mother for me. I asked her wisdom from death on my relationship with food. Her first question to me was “Diane, why search for a muffin when you want it gluten-free, dairy-free, no nuts, no butter, ON and ON. Why?? What kind of muffin are you looking for?!” I realized I want a muffin without pleasure. I want a GOOD muffin not a BAD muffin because I want to be a GOOD person, not a BAD person. When Im caught up worrying about GOOD or BAD there’s no pleasure. There’s no BEING. Seem familiar to anyone else? What would our dance with food look like if we moved beyond right and wrong? I’m curious. I wonder if we can become more in tune with what works for us individually.
Then I ask Mom about my food sensitivities. She said. “Diane, be respectful of food. Treat your food with respect, treat your body with respect….but mostly ENJOY your food. Food is great pleasure at it’s root.” It’s a pleasure until our mind gets involved and categorizes, separates, distinguishes and fusses.
I’m discovering and uncovering a fine dance of eating what feels good in my body and not getting caught up in trends or what others say is best. I am learning to listen and feel and mostly come home to my body while I still have a body. I’m learning more and more from my mom the only thing separating life from death is our bodies and this earth. We’re in a global shift from a place of making decision from our minds to making decision from our bodies and our relationship with the soul of the earth. I remember over and over again treat my body with R. E. S. P. E. C. T. !! Like Aretha says!
From talking to Mom in Death daily, I am wondering besides a body and this profoundly incredible earth WHAT ELSE WILL BE DIFFERENT IN DEATH? Maybe we won't worry as much about gluten-free and dairy-free? I wonder. Mostly Mom says again “enjoy your food, Diane! enjoy your life! Relax into your food and see how you feel. I imagine, Diane, it will feel better.” “Thank you, Mom! I know how much you loved to eat. I always watched you in awe because your relationship with food was FREE!!” Freedom, isn't this what we all truly want in life??
food as friend, food as freedom, food as an incredible gift that nourishes us while we are alive. As we die we no longer eat and what happens when were dead?? The great mystery.
What I have discovered from listening to Mom from death is she only speaks to me when I am still, grounded and not racing around and worrying. This is I believe the place to ask ourselves about food choices and what to eat. wow! how things are different when I breathe! Bless, take time to honor and BE before doing. Take time for digestion!
Mostly Mom says we should be gentle with ourselves. Listening to our bodies and play!